It was the worst mistake to skip breakfast this morning. The consequence – Tears streaming down my face and burning eyes because all my eye make up got into them, too. Let me tell you how this happened…
Background
Today was day 7 of my new diet. I started feeling detox symptoms coming on since Friday, getting worse everyday. Symptoms included headaches from lack of caffeine, pimple-like bumps under my skin, slight dizziness from my blood pressure starting to drop, feelings of weakness, sweating, irritability and short tempered. It felt like today was a real emotional low point.
Back to the story
I slept in because our new kitten, Chewy, woke me throughout the night. He pounced on my feet and knocked his bell toy ball about every now and them. We decided to go to town early and do some shopping for kitten supplies and for some other things.
I was in a hurry to get back home for breakfast and to stay in a controlled environment. But the husband thought we could just get a bite while in town… Big mistake – We took longer than anticipated, and all the walking up and down the mall and grocery shop isles left me poofed with no energy to speak of..
Already past 12 o’clock..
Seeing all the food and snacks packed on the shelves and I’m not allowed to give in to them… Thoughts of breaking the stupid rules was starting run through my head…Resistance crumbling…The husband saw I was starting to give in and quickly pulled me away from the sweets’ shelf magnetic force… In the meantime I was feeling hungrier, weaker and crankier by the footstep.
I quickly got some cherry tomatoes and ham for me from the deli. But the husband wanted his own snack. A stop by the Sandwich Baron and his order of a toasted avo, bacon and feta sarmie left me mouth watering, but more irritable. His mmm’s and ahh’s on the way home while digging into that delicious sarmie, and sipping on a big coca-cola, none which I’m allowed to have, was the last straw. It felt like he was purposefully being cruel to me!
I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I had such a strong desire for regular food. I always have something sweet as a regular habit over weekends. Such as dark chocolate and of course I really miss having some cool drink, or soda. Even a fruit!
The amount of determination it will take, never crossed my mind when I started this diet.
What did I get myself into? How on earth will I get through the next two weeks of strict food choices and limitations? I could give in, but what will be the point of paying all this money and all the effort I already put in not to cheat. I knew I had to just stick it through. But it’s not easy. It’s hard work. REALLY HARD WORK. Do you know what I say when I mean really, really hard work?
It all just became too much for me to bear. I started sobbing. I never cry about anything. It wasn’t like me. The husband even commented “why are you putting on such a bad act?”, and I thought: “Wow, this actually feels good, crying a bit. If I’m going to cry, at least do it properly and get it over with”. Well, I just opened the taps and sobbed my heart out. When the silly husband saw I was being serious, he said: “Honey”, I thought you were only joking”. He thought I looked so cute with eye make-up all over my face he took a picture of me. Of course I’ve looked better.
After a few minutes, I felt much calmer, emotionally relieved and surprisingly, the desire for sweets were also gone. I washed my face and thought “Great! Must remember this trick to get over old bad habits or a sweet spell”.
Today I learned a big lesson: Never, ever skip breakfast. Especially, when on a diet.